Im having the TTD again - Temporary Temperament Disorder. Though it sounds so easy and simple, it's vicious. Stay away from me coz im unstable. I usually have this a week before my period starts. But wth! I juz finished my period a few weeks ago so it cant be! Grr..

Ive been feeling this way ever since yesterday.. I hate talking and listening to the past.. It juz ignites whatever that im afraid of that would happen.. When i thought i was over them, it just burns and come alive again.. Maybe i just dont like listening to you talking about your past coz it makes me uncomfortable or maybe a teenie weenie bit jealous. (I mean the opposite when i say "Teenie Weenie") I dont like being jealous.. I wished i was "Jealous - Proof" or something.. I hate saying stuffs to you and end up feeling all shitty afterwards.. I just dun wanna sound as if im controlling your life.. What's wrong with me?!

See.. Im not such a perfect soulmate after all..

I remember all the things i used to think abt when i was with my exes.. All the thoughts juz fills my head until i thought i was going mental or something.. Id cry for no reason at all, get angry when no one pissed me off. I was worse than now.. Yep, we dont argue (which is great) but the way im having these stupid temperaments, i dont know how we're gonna end up.

I know i didnt talk to you. Coz i intended not to.. I didnt hold your hand. Coz i intended not to. I almost cried at work when Glenn asked me what i wanted to do for closing. Like, wtf?! That wasnt even a reason for a normal person to cry.. Went to the back room and felt like screaming to the wall.. Too bad you werent there.. It was so bad that i even told myself that if i finished early (or late), id either head home on my own or wait for you without telling you im done. Ok, maybe im jealous coz i didnt know where you went.. Maybe to Esplanade to chill or something and that person wasnt me.. See, how dumb i can get?! I dont even understand why i feel this way.. Omiegawd.. God help me...

Dear God, will you please make me jealous - proof?

Urgh.. Yea well, im not that perfect soulmate after all.. Didnt know why i asked you that question last night.. "If i left you behind without a word, what would you do?" I juz felt that one day, if i were to give you too much trouble, having all these thoughts and all, the only way would be to say goodbye without a word.. Just like what i wrote in one of my journals..

I love you.. I gez i love you way too much that i end up feeling this way. Its bad for me.. I dun even understand why or how i feel this way.. I dont wanna be like any normal girl you meet on the street, or any of the girls that you had a relationship with,, Im Eva Marie and i want to be different.. But it looks like im not so different after all..

Get these thoughts outta my head!! GRRrr..

Im having the TTD again - Temporary Temperament Disorder. Though it sounds so easy and simple, it's vicious. Stay away from me coz im unstable. I usually have this a week before my period starts. But wth! I juz finished my period a few weeks ago so it cant be! Grr..

Ive been feeling this way ever since yesterday.. I hate talking and listening to the past.. It juz ignites whatever that im afraid of that would happen.. When i thought i was over them, it just burns and come alive again.. Maybe i just dont like listening to you talking about your past coz it makes me uncomfortable or maybe a teenie weenie bit jealous. (I mean the opposite when i say "Teenie Weenie") I dont like being jealous.. I wished i was "Jealous - Proof" or something.. I hate saying stuffs to you and end up feeling all shitty afterwards.. I just dun wanna sound as if im controlling your life.. What's wrong with me?!

See.. Im not such a perfect soulmate after all..

I remember all the things i used to think abt when i was with my exes.. All the thoughts juz fills my head until i thought i was going mental or something.. Id cry for no reason at all, get angry when no one pissed me off. I was worse than now.. Yep, we dont argue (which is great) but the way im having these stupid temperaments, i dont know how we're gonna end up.

I know i didnt talk to you. Coz i intended not to.. I didnt hold your hand. Coz i intended not to. I almost cried at work when Glenn asked me what i wanted to do for closing. Like, wtf?! That wasnt even a reason for a normal person to cry.. Went to the back room and felt like screaming to the wall.. Too bad you werent there.. It was so bad that i even told myself that if i finished early (or late), id either head home on my own or wait for you without telling you im done. Ok, maybe im jealous coz i didnt know where you went.. Maybe to Esplanade to chill or something and that person wasnt me.. See, how dumb i can get?! I dont even understand why i feel this way.. Omiegawd.. God help me...

Dear God, will you please make me jealous - proof?

Urgh.. Yea well, im not that perfect soulmate after all.. Didnt know why i asked you that question last night.. "If i left you behind without a word, what would you do?" I juz felt that one day, if i were to give you too much trouble, having all these thoughts and all, the only way would be to say goodbye without a word.. Just like what i wrote in one of my journals..

I love you.. I gez i love you way too much that i end up feeling this way. Its bad for me.. I dun even understand why or how i feel this way.. I dont wanna be like any normal girl you meet on the street, or any of the girls that you had a relationship with,, Im Eva Marie and i want to be different.. But it looks like im not so different after all..

Get these thoughts outta my head!! GRRrr..